Saturday, January 26, 2008
i extend my leisure hrs
by sleeping later and waking up super early for work
im preety much like a walking corpse haha
eeeerrrr
aniwaes ..been watching HWANG JIN YI
online =)
i cried by eyeballs out
so much so i had sore eyes
but the ending is realli bad
nort worth my 1 hr =(
but overall great drama cause ive nv been more addicted
in yrs
yep lifeless me =)
buttts happy can alr !
have u observed say in a nursery
when a child cries
some children on auto mode wld cry spontaneously
with the distressed child
taking upon the other childs distress as their own
some wld just look at the child blankly ,with much indifference
some wld pat the child to soothe the wailing child
i say emphaty is inborn
dun believe in tabula rasa
where ppl are born like as if their minds
were a piece of white paper
ready to to vandallised by expereinces
aniwaes ...i was just observing haha
dun need to take it so seriously
my weekends are spent in church
much has been gappening in church
like the TNG launch tml=)
nellyn and i wld be spastic ushers tml waiting to
be bashed
cause our job is to keep the ppl comming thru the back door quiet
tts like haha how hard larz
not my mouth
but yet i hav to seal them
haha
back to the prefect daes !
i hav my ways =)
i hav a small cell tgh with the nurturing and attractive hot mama RACHel
and the smart head prefect of cedar GRace
we hav 11 kids =)
all v.cute (they are actually the sentosa kids i wanted
to scream at haha)
their mean psle score is a whooping 254 point
yep !
sample of the qns they ask
1)does god hav a father ?..how did he appear
...he has a father rites ..how old is he
2) how come we hav so many races ...i tot the
world started out with adam and eve ?
3) we come frm monkeys rites ... i rem i read it
somewhere
4)how come ...how come ....rarr can rem but they
were flooding us with qns
haha but realli interesting stuff they came out with i sae
our girls are thinkers !=) proud of them
and im glad we were able to come up
with the ans
with kaifengs help of course =)
rainbow;
8:37 AM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
i realised that im happier with work
thou i hardly find it satisfying
communicating with the com
i look forward to weekends
and i do a five dae countdown
everydae at work
at work i do a 9 hr countdown
well u see im bz counting down all the time
when the week end greets me
i finally get a taste of real freedom
and i get the thrill out of it
what keeps me at a boring job
is the challenge to preservere
just to challenge urself how long u can tahan =)
at the expense of a life
seriously dun need the money so much
but it wld be good to hav some
savings for uni thou=)
i hope ill get my adhoc relief
teaching from pl soon =)
realli wanna work with the kids
if i cld later in the few mths i wld love to do some waitressing
or something Fand B related (my dream job since i was a kid )
esp at some jap restraunt
i wanna learn how to serve
how to decorate the food with the plates
how to attract customers to come back to eat
so exciting rites =)
all of tt is what i wanna do b4 uni
im so jealous of timothy the bah ku teh boy at church
!hes bz and meeting ppl all th e time =)
btw the lady taught me some stuff at work !
like finally
i didnt have to irrate her 8 times like i had planned
initially haha
whoo i had prayed abt this ,i prayed for wisdom at work
how to deal with ppl and other stuff
and all i can say is tt
GOD ANS PRAYERS =)
i make it a point to pray tt prayer everydae b4 work
btw i had the chance to msg ppl frm sch the whole week
it feels good to irritate the ppl u care abt =)
heyy all u ppl ! happy working
dun make enemies
learn and try not to make mistakes
and yep trust always in god =)
rainbow;
5:21 AM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
haha u noe ppl still are very insecure at hmmm say 30+++ mabey 40
my superior is realli scared to teach me stuff=)
accounting stuff actually
mabey shes scared tt she wont be of use to the company
aft i learn the ropes frm her
btw the boss has indicated tt he wants me to be productive
and shes supposed to be my sort of teacher
so im like bored !
out of the 9 hrs im supposed to work
abt 5 hrs is spent either watching her work
or stonning =O
yeah man u sure dun wanna be a stone
in ur next life if u believe in recarnation
aft going thru this
the world passes by as u waste secs ,mins,hrs,eternity...
by the way!
for all u there who believe in recarnation
seriously how can recairnation exist
when the world is expanding in population ???
go figure !
try to enlighten me pls thks
btw i intend to irritate her
irritate her until she teaches me
todae i asked her 5 times for a job to do
at the 5th time i cldnt tahan alr
i mean u study till the a levels to
be paid to stone
aint it a waste of ur brains
and all the physical strength tt god has endowed u with ?
heres how it went
me:so aunty ******* can i finally have some work to do
me :i hav nothing to do and im so bored i cld sleep now
me:how abt the completion of the invoice tt was signed
this morn ?
her:errr ....cannot larz need to check one
me:i can help u do tt just hav to teach me
her: (stop fpr a momet to think of a reply )...errr nothing larz ...oooh
actually hav larz but its v boring
her:u see the 3 files there? yeah just seperate the double side paper frm
the single sided one
me:yay ! finally
man yeah man at least i was able to contribute
by doing rather brainless work
but heyy nort going to waste my time away
im gonna learn accounts !
lets up tmls pestering to 8 times !
if it doesnt work then every 5 mins haha
see who cannot tahan first
can u imagine if the boss sees me slacking 9 hrs away
aiyoh more trouble
rainbow;
7:12 AM
Monday, January 14, 2008
heres a song tt we all wld hav though
about sometime in our lives
to hav some fun u cld laugh at the
lyrics and exclaim"ahha loser "=)
or u cld get all emo momo over the lyrics
haha yeah just get in touch with ur inner being
(yeah like gays do i guess)
tell me what love is ?
what can it be
what is this yearning
burning in me
will i survive it
will i endure
this is my sickness
is there a cure
first this obsession
seizing my brain
starting in passion
ending in pain
i start to shiver
then im on fire
then im a quiver
with seething desire
who hold the secret
who hold the key
i long for something
what can it be
my brain is reeling
i wonder why
and then the feeling
im gonna die
by dae it haunts me haunts me by night
this tender yearning thinged with delight
repeat
repeat
haha
repeat until u are happy
u noe .ive grown up to be quite skeptical abt love
i look at my mums friends
ALL of which are on the verge of
breakdown or divorce
anywaes all u women
be independent
financially (hav some part time job )
mentally(keep in touch with ur realli good friends)
spritually(hav god in ur hearts ,cause his ur compass when u are directionless)
why do r'ships breakdown ?
so far frm the real life egs ive seen
-religion ,or rather the diff
-addiction(gambling,lets add drinking ,womanising to the list )
-woman more capable than the men ,and the guy is realli sore
im ok with mixing with guys
but nort going deeper than tt
i can be realli judgemental towards them
if i dun like ur characer
ill just ignore u
until i see tt u posess the qualities of
a friend
and nort just flirting arnd
ill give u the same respect u show me
im afraid of the commitment
everytime some guy tries too hard
ill draw my self further away
i noticed tt
in the end its realli akward ..i realli wished we
could just hang out
without feelin weird
in Ac it was much better
isimply lauged it off
nv took theese ppl seriously=)
like tt alort
just plain friendships
im realli comfy with tt
yay!i think im maturing =))
women hav been too dependent on man i feel
ive been feelin angsty
im sorry theese things(mums friends marriage troubles)
have been occuring
abit too frequently
women hav issues with each other too
its scary
esp when theres bitchin and catfight involved
humans are carnivorous and they eat each
others hearts and minds
good friends are hard to come by
realli hav to treasure the ppl u love
better to hav few and realli good friends
then many but superficial ones=)
im proud to sae i have
3 ppl i call good friends
i noe its realli little but
haha i dun care !
but i care when im realli lonely of course
but meanwhile im realli thankful
thk u god for ur provision =)
rainbow;
7:05 AM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
went over to my mums mother's sisters place yest
to shorten it
i went to my ah yees place
went to go play with ruien(3 yrs old ) and jun jie(4yrs old )
the looked realli adorable sleeping on the hamock looking thing
they were half awake when i was there
when they saw us they cried
aiyoh so poor thing didnt mean to tramatise them =(
lols man just 1 mth
and we hav become strangers
children hav such short term memory
they cant rem the girl who helped them assemble
their police car ?=(
so they hid frm me haha like behind anything they can find
with their heads protruding out
realli adorable
aft a brief hostility frm their side
the next thing was screaming frm them
because they were so excited to play
they cant speak ,so they scream =)
it was my turn to be tramatised =O
played some bowling ,pretend to be fisherman games with them
boys tend to destruct
and girls doesnt seem to hav the instinct to do so
try the bowling game with both genders
the guys need not to be told how to play the game
its instinctive
the girl instead wld be more interested in placing the pins upright
aft 5 prompting
the girl still doesnt show any aggresion towards the pins!
little boys seem also to be less sticky
i was shocked to see rui en running towards me she hugged my leg
and pressed her cheeks on them when she needed protection
i was slightly not used to it ,a bit freaked out
its onli possible cause she is slightly taller than my knee=)
man yep my encounter with short ppl
when she does tt
it looks like a human growing out frm my shin =)
rarrr working tml=( everybodies so serious and are older than me ...man
let me teach them a thing or two abt loosening up=)
hahah in my dreams ah!
rainbow;
2:24 AM
Sunday, January 06, 2008
feel kind of displaced aft As ,miss sch badly =(
i miss having to wake up early
i miss disturbing the ppl in my class(eg being the pimptress when the girls all decide to pon sch tgh ...and i the class rep still hav to go to sch ...sighhs haha) and the class in front of us (eg monster ...monster and monster..althou our class girls always kana wacked by aunty)
i miss having long chats (like the girls in our class can tok frm the time we enter sch ,all the way through assembly until sch starts =)
i misss the girls badly ...but we are meeting up this fri which is a relief
i miss laughing at insecure fairy xiangwei or michael lai
or enjoyed listening to ever entertaining stories abt life with a dose of swearing frm chiam(rem how she sweared at the fields ..was damn funny ...one of a kind ) and cuiMAN(this one swears neh neh..=)
the protection frm jojo (my ah mah )
all the daes we laughed at qianzhi for pointing at the haze???and watch her gasp "oh my god"
i love laughing at the chang and eng buddies in our class aka andy and weemeng who smoke thru any punishments with their "im too cool for sch "attitude and "ey mdn mdm......."
i am entertained by certain personalities in our class like uncle aka clovis who strokes his not so evident..invisible? goatee and think like someone 5 times his age ...he is someone who has a v.gd listening ear =) good to share deep thoughts with him ...and michael yue who reminds us daily how hot he is ...or mark who onli has time for his mistress aka bird
i am shocked ttt our class girls climb the sch gate v.well not minding if there are any guys around haha
im suprised tt ive onli seen andy awake for abt hmmm 8 plus hrs for the whole two yrs
i misss miss too for being such sport when cui and i shock her while she goes abt her daily activities when she lest expects it
i miss miss yue for chiding us abt "acting cute in front of our parents " and to "see beyond our make believe hand made binoculars"
i miss mr ongs pe lessons cause tts when our class realli gets to bond
i miss my cca esp jumps =) (ziyi,jane,joshua,daniel and james for ur friendships )
oh and the other trackers like lih yuan ,joel ,angel ,melcher,shengyang for putting a smile on my face everytime i see u
man many many more like the ppl like david and lydia (sr buddies tt went to ac with me )
mannnnnn the list goes on
but i shall stop here
I MISSS!
rainbow;
7:09 AM
Thursday, January 03, 2008
mannnnnnnnn i just met the MOST unfriendly singaporean in my entire life(realli entire nort joking.shes the lady working at the crestar building at sr near my hus (Some body brave shld make another rk house video out of tt *hinty hint) ok tt was super mean ..dun do tt... theres like 6 ladies there ..dun think ull figure out who tt meannie is
is is how we met ...my mum wanted to make sure tt the part time maid doesnt overwork ...we didnt hav a watch so my mum forced me to go to the crestar building to ask for the time (u noe the place looks like a cc,with childcare and kids prog ,but its obviously more profit motivated )
kk so i just went in to ask for the time
me:im sorry to disturb but may i know what time it is now
her: stares at me with those goldfish eyes(this time my heart trembled)
me:*flash a smile
her :WHERE ARE U FROM ?!!!+gives me the disdain look
her :GROWLS (man she growls ....this is the first time i hear somebody who growls so spontaneously akin to ur pet dog...then again pets are alot cuter baceause they can be tamed )
me:im sorry but i wanna make sure my maid doesnt overwork,u know its nort fair to her if we go home late
her :mumbles v.reluctantly 4 something
me:sry cant hear u did i hear 4 something
her:growls again
me:*damn scared alr so ...i said thank u ...man did i sae thank u????and smile ..i must be mad
man cant she just tell me the time? i was emotionally unrepairable for like 10 mins ...u noe even the aunties on the streets are much kinder than u are ...and u didnt even wanna tell me the time properly .
man all the courtesy campaign hav gone to waste ...that lion tt sings and dance on tv is just a mascot to u ....not an ideal of kindness.
if there was a ministry of kindness ,ill be the first to wanna be the first to work there ....alll offenders (esp those in the scv sector)
shall wear that mascot costume and parade them selves by shaking hands with the elderly in the lao ren yuan and sing and shake their hips and dance for them for at least 2 hrs !hurmpff
rainbow;
12:48 AM
